Restore
GO
8 days after major surgery considering the
word RESTORE I am thinking of what’s next. Being under the anesthesia
delightfully ended the migraine that held me captive for 145 days straight.
I desperately want to get back to life and
praying for full restoration of my body from all these months of confinement to
my home with minimal travel and energy expended lest the migraine go from a 5
to a 10 on the pain scale.
I think of the verse about how God promises
to restore the years the locusts have eaten (Joel 2:25), and I wonder what that
looks like for me. Is it ALL that I’ve lost/missed in the past months or is it
just the stuff that’s important to Him?
My prayer is that He will RESTORE the
countless hours I spent in the dark, the countless dollars that we spent on
medical bills and lost in income, the countless moments I missed interacting
with my hubby, kids, our friends and families. I want him to restore it all.
I know many others long for things much
bigger than these and my requests may be selfish, but part of recognizing and
pressing into the pain of this loss of almost 6 months is being honest about
what I want restored.
STOP
This is me in September of 2017. Before the epic migraine and major surgery. I miss her.
